It's all my fault- Part 3

Part 3- The truth

At Khushi's Home.

Khushi's parents were glaring at Khushi after hearing just Khushi told them a moment ago.

''Arnav and me want to get marry.''

''Khushi! What are you talking about? Marriage? With Arnav bitwa?'' Garima asked in angry tone.

Garima glanced at the helpless Arnav and sighed.

This must be Khushi's doing again.

''Haan Amma, I want to be with Arnav forever.'' She said without any hesitation.

Shashi's face is clearly showing that he really had enough of Khushi's crazy ideas to be with Arnav.

''Shut up! I had enough! Just stop taking over of Arnav's life! Will you?'' Shashi is totally pissed off of her.

''Haan bitiya, marriage is not child play, it's a sacred relationship between a man and woman. You can't easy decided to do it as you please.'' Garima tried make Khushi understand.

Shashi agreed with Garima, Khushi and Arnav to be husband and wife? Is not like he won't accept Arnav as his son in law but is Arnav really ok with marry his daughter?

Of course they have affection for each other as best friend but as lovers?

He have always see Arnav as his own son, he also worried for Arnav's future.

Can his daughter keeps Arnav happy? Not as friend but as wife?

Shashi sighed.

''I'm sorry but I can't approve this.'' Shashi said bluntly.

Khushi gritted her teeth and asked.

''But why? Why can't you?''

Shashi keep stood in silence.

''Uncle, is it because  I am a handicap? (Sad smile) Of course all father wants the best for their daughter and (look at his walking stick) I am not the best.. It's ok uncle I understand.'' Said Arnav with smile.

Shashi feel bad for Arnav.

''Beta....'' Shashi tried explain the reason is he actually want the best life partner for Arnav.

Khushi cuts him off in middle.

''Babuji! Look what you have done, my Arnav is depress again. I don't care whether you accept our marriage or not, I will still marrying Arnav.'' She got angry by seeing Arnav sad.

Shashi look at Khushi with narrowed eyes.

''Is that so? When you guys going to marry?'' Shashi asked her.

''Tomorrow?'' Khushi in unsure tone.

Garima gasped, is she crazy?

Shashi chuckled.

''Yourself aren't sure when you want to marry.'' Shashi said sarcastically. 

Garima look at Arnav in pity, is he really want marry their daughter or he was forced to do so.

Shashi turn to Arnav and asked him.

''Arnav, do you really want to marry Khushi?''

''Of course he do babuji..'' Shashi cut off Khushi's words.

''You just shut up and let Arnav talk.'' Said Shashi to Khushi.

''Yes uncle.'' Arnav replied to Shashi.

''Alright, let wait for you guys graduate first then we will arrange for your marriage. Until then you guys might also fall for each other and Khushi this is my final decision.'' Shashi said strictly.

Khushi forced to agreed because she had no choice since Arnav have same opinion as her babuji.

...................

Five year later..

Garima hugged her beautiful daughter tightly, happy to see her daughter in her wedding dress.

''Hope you guys will always be happy bitiya. Make sure you keep your husband happy. It's my dream to see you as bride, just look how beautiful my daughter has became.'' Garima kissed Khushi's cheeks.

Khushi smile happily.

''My Arnav will like it na?'' She asked.

''Of course he will.'' Garima winked at her.

They both laughed.

In those five years, Khushi and Arnav became so close more than just friends.

They both got graduate and start AK fashion house together., Make their fashion become well known.

Khushi start to fall for Arnav really hard, she confess her love to him on his birthday.

Arnav accept her confession and that's how they start to date.

Their parents are really happy when the news of Arnav and Khushi are love each other reached them and blessed their relationship.

Shashi decide to accept their relationship was the right thing to do as long they love each other nothing else is a matter.

Now they are going to get marry and start their new life as husband and wife.

Garima and Anjali(Arnav's mother) bring Khushi mandap, made her sit beside Arnav.

Arnav totally forgot the whole world after seeing her in her bride attire.

She clear her throat with teasing smile.

''Arnav you look so handsome in this sherwani, how do I look to you?'' She said in low tone.

''As usual.'' He said.

She pouted and said.

''How can you be so unromantic to your would be wife in few more minutes?'' 

Arnav suppress his smile.

''You look so beautiful as usual.'' He said.

She blushed, is he teasing her?

''Oh, my Arnav has become so naughty haan?'' She raised her eyebrow.

''Just wait until tonight I show you how naughty I can be.'' He whispered.

''Shameless..'' She muttered shyly.

 ..................

After all ritual takes place, Arnav finally put sindoor her on her maang and tie mangalsutra around her neck.

They glanced at each other with smile.

She almost in tears, if someone told her in past that she will marry Arnav, there no way she would believe it but now..

But now she is his wife, Mrs.Khushi Arnav Singh Raizada.

She is happy and proud of it.

They takes blessings of their parents.

Garima cried a lot while hugging Khushi, in sadness that her Khushi going away from her.

Khushi didn't cry cause they're actually neighbours, she can see her family often anyways.

But Garima seem has forgotten about it.

.....................

Then they get into the car.

They were sitting on the backseat.

Driver Mohan was driving the car.

She rest her head on Arnav's shoulder.

He hold her hands softly.

''Eh? Arnav, isn't it the wrong route? Aren't we going to your house?'' She asked.

Arnav smirk and put his finger on lips.

''Shh..''

She frowned and saw drive also was smiling.

30 Minutes later...

''Sir, we have reached.'' Driver said.

''Alright, there will no need for you to be here so you go home.''Arnav said.

Drive nod.

Arnav and Khushi get out of the car.

''Why are we here? Who's house is this?'' She asked him.

"I bought it recently, let's go in.'' He led her inside the house.

.....................

Inside the house.

Khushi was mesmerized by the interior designs.

''I renewed it as per you liking, do you like it?'' He asked.

''I... I love it! Arnav.'' She hugged his arm and kiss his cheek.

He smiled at her.

"Do you know what I like most about this house?'' He asked.

"Hmm? What?" Khushi asked.

"There will no one here just you and me., for whole week.'' He said happily.

"For whole week?! Did maa (Arnav's mother) and dad(Arnav's father) know about this? They must already arranged everything for our first ni...'' She stop in embarrassment.

He smirked naughtily.

"For what?" He asked in teasing tone.

"Hmm.. woh.. Our first... Night." Said Khushi with red face.

He chuckled seeing her red face.

"Don't worry they already know about it and they arranged everything that you mention at here.'' He whispered in her hear.

"Come." He bring her to the bedroom.

The room was decorated with candles and flowers.

Arnav made her sat on the bed, he also sit beside her and place walking stick beside the bed.

"You must uncomfortable with all that jewelleries, let's take it off." He suggested.

She smiled, he understands her very well.

She sighed out of relief after getting rid of all thos heavy jewelleries and too much pins in her hair.

He helped her too.

"I like it when you let your hair open like this." He stroke hair softly. 

Khushi smiled.

He cupped her face and look into her eyes.

"I love you Khushi."He confessed.

She smiled, yes this is the first time he ever said it to her.

"I love you Arnav." 

She close her eyes as his lips is nearing hers.

Their first kiss was gentle, soft, beautiful.

She turn the light off.

The room still have a dim light of candles.

Soon their room filled with moanings.

They finally become one.

..........................

At midnight.

Arnav woked suddenly and feel so thirsty.

Arnav look at Khushi who is sleeping like a baby.

She was so worried about his right leg when they made love.

Ask every single minutes whether his leg is paining or not.

He look for the water jug it was at the corner table.

First he have to get up from bed to get it.

He glance again at Khushi, he can't wake up her anyway since she must be so tired.

He took her hand off from his and slowly get up from the bed.

He walked toward the table and drink the water.

He glanced the walking stick that still beside the bed.

And went slowly back to the bed.

"I love Khushi.. And you love me too." He smirked.

He keep stare at her.

Handicap? Who is handicap?

Oh yes, he was.

But not anymore.. 

17 years ago, I never had friend except you. You're my only friend that I ever had and wanted to have.

You're so selfless, cheerful and really friendly. You always get along with everyone, it was the first I start to fear that I might lost you to others. Of course I am the one who closest to you but I still can't get rid of the thought might loss you.

When that accident happened I did lost my ability to walk. I was really in pain it's all happened so suddenly. When I woke up I told by the doctor that I can't walk normally anymore, I was really broken because I am handicap so you might hate me and think of me as a burden.

But what did happen was, you came visit me with quilt in your eyes. I felt bad for you to happen to witness such horrifying sight. I was about tell you it wasn't your fault but that drunk lorry driver's fault but your words stopped me.

"I won't leave you alone again. I will always with you, it's all my fault!"

Your words stopped me, my selfish heart wanted to keep you always by my side.

I wanted to tell that it's wasn't your fault but what I really did said is.

"Yes, it's all your fault. I can't walk anymore because you leave me behind." 

Your fragile heart with quilt started to make you wanted to be with me after hearing that.

You became protective of me and avoid other guys.

Then I started to be mature and tried to free you from web of quilt that I made.

I realized that I love you so much that's why I did all this stupid things even after I know it's wrong.

I wanted free you and confess my love to you..

But you again stopped me from doing that by saying you're interested at that Shyam Manohar Jha.

Seriously can't you see that I really in love with you..

Again my selfishness over win my heart, I can't afford to lose you to that Shyam!

So I act like I was happy for you and started to investigate about that Shyam.

He is from really from a problematic family, his mother leave his father and him for another man.

So I use it against him, you must already told I'm just your friend so he won't mind me at all.

When you about to go to date, I intentionally stepped on a nail and stopped you from going to him.

That pain is nothing compared to the pain losing you to another man.

As expected you didn't go to date and as per my calculations he called you and asked about why are you late.

You told him that you can come because you have to take care of me.

Then as I planned he became so jealous and argue with you in end you choose me over him and swear to never ever see him again.

But every time I gain something I have lose something instead of it.

I gain your attention but I lost your real joyful self.

I'm aware of it that my way of loving amd keeping you by my side is really very wrong.

I never had my attention nor love of my parents, they are always busy earning money but you're the first who showed me what love is.

I know I may be never had parents love and that doesn't make what I am doing then was right either.

I tried to bring the real Khushi back but again the fate decided something else.

I met Shyam and he humiliated me before everyone at school.

He called me names and make fun of my disability, I wasn't mad at all because this happening because of my doing.

But he guessed that I might in love with you but he wasn't really sure of it.

He told that I am just a burden on your shoulder that you want to get rid of. You're perfect girl and I'm a handicap who can't even walk properly without support of stick.

What he said then was right, then you came and stopped that Shyam from humiliating me by slapping him.

You become more and more obsess of me.

I gone through lot of operation but it didn't work well, that's what everyone in our thought include you.

After operation I indeed couldn't walk but after gone through some physiotherapy after I started to walk again slowly.

After some months my leg recovered and I even can run again like before.

I wanted to tell you that I could walk again so I won't be burden on you anymore.

But the quilt that I planted on your heart have become worse than I expected.

There is huge possibility that you leave me after knowing that I am totally fine.

Because the source of the quilt, protectiveness and obsession that you have for all started because of this injury.

So I didn't tell anyone tell truth and act like the handicap me before the recovery.

And also I act like I had gave up surgeries so they won't get know that I had already recovered.

Then I got the scholarship at Harvard university, that my mother desired.

She planned to take me there to best education and treatment.

If I go there they will find out that I'm already fine and I also can't leave Khushi here alone.. Khushi might end up liking someone again when I wasn't here.

I don't care really don't which university I go anyway as long I have Khushi.

Then I used selfish options again without knowing the consequences that might come.

I was packing my luggage and you helping me as usual.

I intentionally told you that I might get so busy with studies so I couldn't call you often and might end up settle there after finishing my studies.

You who was already really sad that I'm going far away was really affected by it.

I thought that you might try to talk my parents but I never imagined that would.. Try to commit suicide.

I was shocked after knowing that and rush to hospital and came to know you had so many sleeping tables.

You blackmailed my parents to make me stay. It made me realise what I have done to you.

Shashi uncle became angry on you for stopping me getting treatment and good education, he stop talking to you because of me.

But no one know it that I was the real reason.. Not even you.

I had finally realized what will my words will do to you, I want you become my life partner not a mind slave!

Then after I get hold of every words I am saying, and think before saying anything to you.

We went to same college, just in one week everyone's thoughts of you is Khushi Kumari Gupta is controlling Arnav Singh Raizada, but the truth is opposite I am the who actually controlling you.

Then finally decided I can't leave you just like this anymore, no matter what! I have to free you.

So I went with Nk when said he will set me a blind date a girl that his girlfriend know.

I felt want to punch Nk's face everytime he mentioned that I'm just friend to you and nothing else.

And one girl seem interested on me, what was name again? As if I care remember anyway. I felt like some insects running over my body when she touched my arm.

I never imagined to be any other girl before nor will in future, it's just you..

As I know you had searched for me and definitely get Akash spill the truth.

Then I slowly gave you the idea of marrying me and you did as well.

You told your parents about it but I know Shashi uncle won't agree so easily as he care so much for me.

So I intentionally bring up my disability as wild card knowing that you will be pissed off, I really sorry for Shashi uncle but this my last chance to make everything right again.

But I didn't expect uncle to postponed our marriage for five years, I can use you again but I didn't want to... Everything that happened all because my impatience and selfishness, so I decided wait and give you some more time to accept me into life as your lover and husband.

When you confess your feelings I couldn't get myself confess my love to you after all things I have done to you.

But today I finally have what I want.. It's you. The real you.

It was a good decision that I decided wait for you.

You finally come out from the web of quilt slowly just by yourself.

After you falling in love for me, I told you that I accept your feelings. You slowly start understand that I'm yours and I won't leave you at any situaitio.n And I made you meet phycologist, even though you don't want to., you still did listen to my words.

I promise Khushi I will take care of you and love you forever.

But still I can't tell you about my leg.

Please forgive me..

This is may be the punishment for me, it kill me everytime when I'm lying to you.

I will live as handicap forever..

I know you want to hear this from me..

He smile at her and whispered.

"IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT BUT IT'S ALL MY FAULT." His eyes tears up.

She smiled in her sleep.

He kissed her forehead.

~THE END~